expressions

chikadee

shakespeare's words still echo: "what's in a name?"

a name is just but a representation of who we are.  it is used to differentiate us from others, to identify us and assign a singularity to each one of us.  a "ruth" is just a ruth, such as an "eraser" is but a name to refer to that thing we use to delete some useless marks.  my philo 1 professor said that there is no meaning to a term, a word, or a name unless u assign a meaning to it.  and right now, given my state of mind, i would like to believe him fully.

however hard i try, but still i could not seem to understand that people could afford to do something so stupid and unfitting for their name.   "it's how we manage our life that gives meaning to a name" says some thinker i could not point who. but then again, we may be able to manage to acquire great skills, great education, great everything but all these greatness could not warrant that the name would have a good meaning to everyone who hears it being called.

*** do not be hoodwinked by people with commas after their names...

chikadee

i'm now bidding goodbye to my boss and my friends in this department.  three years of being with them, it seems like i have known them really well.  and though we're not the best of friends, no we have not elevated the relationship to that level yet, but the thing is, it is always nice to go to the office knowing that these people are always there, just a pm/ym away.  we could shout at each other, blame each other, fight (even wrestle) with each other, but those moments when we were not so unified as a group are the ones i would miss the most next to eating hot pizza. 

i just love everyone in the e-learning department, starting from my boss who has his own world, to yessa who could stare at the mirror for hours and who always has fashion in her brain, to melody who is extremely quiet on occassions but whose comments are more important than that of barbz' words which are always dispensable and excusable.  but mind you, it is barbz who saves the group from dull moments, what with his antics against yessa and her dogs.

three years and i was already thinking of some change in my career.  last semester i was discussing the theme to a group of friends from grad school.  it was not a very serious discussion then.  but now that the change is coming, fast and unsolicited, i am very reluctant to go and leave the group.  i'd surely miss everyone. 

this is crazy.  this is overly dramatic.  i am just transferring to a different department.  it's just in another building.  but i feel like i am going to some distant place where no one and nothing is familiar.  i know who my new boss is but there's just no replacing the comedic jmr.  the letter says it's a lateral transfer and so the better part of me says there is nothing to worry about... some old stuffs are to be expected. but something is telling me that no, it is not, that there is something more, in fact, that there are a lot more that have not been told yet.

whatever they are, i am not so interested in thinking of them just as yet. i know they will unfold in their own time.  for now i am still mending this worrying heart and am still trying to look for a medicine to separation anxiety. 

chikadee

is there such a thing?

i wish i still have omar's number... i guess ayik is so busy now, what with his all-around participation for bm... or would jeppie be interested and listen?

for days already i have been pre-occupied with the thought of lateral transfer. i am not even sure if such a thing exists in the labor code. it's a pity atty's em-em and joshua are not here.  their brilliant minds could have lighten my already hazy thoughts.  even the scatter-brained (a former professor once referred to her that way) nogie could help me figure things out if she were only here in davao.

see, a lot of people from the same institution where i am working have been transferred to another department. this could be explained by the recent change in the organizational structure of the school.  the hrd officer explains that the transfer of these people is lateral, meaning they only have to transfer from one office to another with the same rate as remuneration.  i don't think the transfer is because there is simply no place for them as a result of the adjustment made to the structure.  because if we take a closer look to the issue, we would see that while they were transferred against their will the positions they vacated are left open and for hiring.  this is of course against the philosophy behind lateral transfer. 

if you ask me about the issue, these people (including myself) have been observed to be efficient in their tasks and are therefore worthy to be trusted with more tasks, and so the transfer.  what the admin fail to see, however (although i believe they simply deny the fact), is that with efficiency comes a price they have to pay.  in my case, it is evident that they are after something which i possess (like the ability to write some trash on top of my affiliations with some NGOs and funding agencies).  from the mouth of one of the minds of all these confusion "pls help the college".  duh, it is not as if the college is losing, in fact the college continues to prosper.  but i have said my piece, "i'm working for the dough, not for charity."

of course, because if i was into doing some pro bono then i should have continued serving under the ugnayan ng pahinungod of up.  there, fulfillment would be genuine. 

chikadee

heard of this?

it's my first time to hear about this too.  and if i was not surfing the net for news of friends and acquaintances i would have not come across this site. 

i was on tabulas, then on multiply.  i was harboring thoughts whether or not i should open friendster due to the considerable amount of virus it contains.  it was at this point when i saw cheryll's blog.  chikai, or che-che as we fondly call her, is the baby sister of a batchmate way back in college.  she went to the same university too and in fact we were in the same clubs.  so immediately i opened the blog, read a few articles, and my attention was focused on blogsvertise.

the term blogsvertise, when broken down, stands for blogs and advertise.  a person advertises something or some service in her/his blog account and in return, she/he gets paid for doing so.  quite appealing, right? and so does this blogger registered in blogsvertise. 

there is yet so much to discover about blogsvertise. a beginner always has qualms and a number of questions in mind.  but my friend chikai seems happy and so i am giving blogsvertise a try.  when the time comes when i could already speak for blogsvertise i would announce it over coffee and bonding sessions with friends and officemates, but for now i am still trying it out in the big sea.

chikadee

it's gedd's bday!

she just turned 1 yesterday.  the party was filled with fun as mom dot's hands were busy with the preparation for months, yes, months.  the oh-so-great-mother that she is, she has been planning her 3rd child's birthday since january. in fact, she even ordered a few items from abroad just to suit gedd's bday theme.

i don't really like strawberry shortcake but my opinion does not matter.  i'm no kiddie and so i don't have much to say about cartoons and kiddie stuffs. however, when it comes to parties, and if it's their party, then it is also my party.

june 12 we had to sort the candies and freebies for the loot bags. planning for games, packing prizes, and preparing the giveaways are always my turf when it's cielo's, zoe's, and gedd's party.  what a job! those cutie items surely delighted the kids that came.

the food was great and the decoration was simple yet elegant.  there were princesses as the emcees for the games and even barney came.  oh what a delight for zoe who did not even wink all throughout the 30mins that barney was there. 

there's so much ahead of you, geddi.  tichi wut wish u the best. 

chikadee

lately i have been dragging my days to pass.  i know this would set gayedelle's mood off, she hates it when one simply exists.  her voice still echoes as she lectured me on the difference of existing and living several years back *oh yes, more than 10 years already.* I know i sound bloody pathetic today *so early in the morning, geez, it's only 15 past 10,* but believe me, i deserve to be so, just for now until the weekend's over. 

physical change
new office next week.  am not so happy of this so-called lateral transfer but i am looking forward to having a new table come monday next week.  i passed by the Research Office yesterday and saw how meager a space we have.  i tell myself that in a few month's time, the rest of the reaserch staff and i will be in the new building at the third floor *whew, so happy to hear there would be an elevator, or else these poor legs would be so darned tired each day*.  oh yeah, ms rauly told me my computer in the new office sucks. i can't tell if i have patience for slow responding pc's but i guess i have to do some dirty work once i get there. 

new office, new workmates, new boss... i will surely have difficulty adjusting, whew!

chemical change and its reactions
i can't be late, my mind screams.  now i have to make plans on how to get up early, move a little briskly in the morning, and reach the office on time.  three years of being the worst of this school's late comers, i am almost near panic state now.  can't take too much coffee and energy drinks anymore these days. for one who's dependent on caffeine, this is a big blow.

chemical change would also refer to the bonding times i spend with the elearning people over pizza.  surely the body would miss the fun, not just of the food *mind u, i am petite and don't look like one who overeats, wink* but of the seasoning friendship produces *which is of course more effective than the msg*.