expressions

a flash report yesterday told of 2 bombs exploding in separate cities, both in mindanao.  it was the negative vibe i got out of the news that had me feeling super tired as i made my way home.  good thing my best bud, porqs, was there to lend ears when i started to whine.  he is always ready to share his opinions on almost any issue.  it was quite an insightful discussion as porqs relived the long-lost part of him, his being an activist.

to think that the philippines has just been hit by storms the past few months killing hundreds of our fellow filipinos in landslides and floods, and recently the death toll has raised for those victimized by fire incidents, it is but depressing to know that there are people who could afford to put more weight on the commom tao's already wounded shoulders. 

i am not putting the blame entirely on the milf or the asg or whatever group that was responsible for the bombings for i also do not have great trust on our government leaders. porqs warned me of how disillusionment could tire one's soul, drain a person's energy to even take a glance on some of the world's little wonders, and cause age to show.  said i better not spend too much energy discussing the plague that hit the country lest i lose the glow that come from the little perks we have left in our midst. 

it is party time once again! i have yet to visit js at illustre or victoria plaza for my last minute shopping to complete my gift list...my tight budget forbids me to purchase barbz and the rest of the team their annual presents, i am so hoping julai or pulonx bring with them a few microsoft stuffs so the guys will have something for the new year...

meeting with the lamp people this morning went ok.  everyone had this huge smile on their face as they went out of my office with a few hundreds to spend in either sm or gmall (what's with these young people ignoring js and vp?).  being in the org has served them good afterall, big haha...we later met at picobello. 

what great pizza!  pizza with durangdang and porqs was really something to look forward to (though it was brief- porqs had to report for work and i had to rush to our xmas party and geezuz, there was scarcity of taxi cabs and traffic was unbearable!).

all is well that ends well, so said shakespeare...though i was not so lucky enough to get my microwave oven or washing machine, i did go home with an electric airpot... i still want either an oven or a washing machine though (since a fridge is not in the list)....

next year i'd do a novena before coming to the party, that i realized a few minutes ago...bye-bye 2006!!!

chikadee

what:     barrio fiesta

when:    saturday, 13th january 07

where:   angalan, davao city

who:      the company- barbz, sir libni, sir richard, juan, melodi

geez, the kaldereta was sooooo delicious, lumpia is forever favorite (i had two rolls), the siopao was great too... we had fun together as we talked of anything that was there to talk of, traveled by taxi and the famous habal-habal (guot kau sa taxi pero lingaw, and grabe sad ang dalan pasulod, thanks to our reliable habal2 driver we reached the area unscratched), walked a dozen or more kilometers to the highway (and take note, we passed by rice fields, even in between paddies!)...

what great way to end the week!! sa uulitin, hehe..

chikadee

dear mister someone named god:

i have been trying to find a way to reach you for so long now that i am on the verge of giving up.  you see, a lot of people tell me and the rest of us who seek you that you are everywhere and that we only need a brief moment of silence to talk to you, to be with you. however, no matter how hard i tried, still you seem to be so far away.

there are times when i trust those people who worship you to lead me.  i sing with them on the hope that my prayers would be heard, that somehow i would find peace and comfort through their company.  praising you, preaching about ur goodness and might, i believed that i was on the right track as i trusted them to lead the way.

it is no surprise then that when these people whom i put my life and peace of mind on- believing that they are on the path you have laid for ur people- when they themselves prove to be sinners too, everything i have is shattered.  all the while they say they are ur people, ur servants, they preach and glorify you, yet in the end they are the ones who perpetrate evil to innocent people, affecting what little faith is left of them, destroying every ideal that's as fragile as the thinnest glass. 

i have seen to much evil. and lately it seems that i could hardly breathe. i choke.  my throat's drying like the sands of the sahara are on its way to blocking all the airways.  how is it that u have allowed these people who claim to be believers of u to destroy ur image? i was actually expecting of some mighty blow to come to those who steal other people's property, claim other people's work, step on other people's rights and silence those who try to speak.

on the outset they are indeed ur people.  but we know, and i would bet the last drop of my blood that u know as well, how rotten they are inside. and still they laugh, they benefit, they walk with their head high while those who are cheated cry in the solace of the dark.   

there's just too much evil...too much that it's just too hard to understand...it is because of these people that i find it hard to find u, to understand ur ways, to believe in u.  sometimes i wonder if i just put too high a standard on u, or that u exist, or that u r as mighty as what i imagine.  as i write this i feel scared of what might happen next to me, but i only need to look outside the window to see that nothing is happening even to those who taught us not to question ur will, these are the same people who have done great evil by manipulating us.

chikadee

election time is coming near and let us all reap the benefits of the season...go go pips, ask for more! (yeyey!!!)